Inkpaw

Knees touch 
eyelashes blink
I blush 
you look away 
I keep glancing over
at your hair 
your ripped up leggings
your eyes
that remind me of times where giggles and laughter were my languge 

Friends
a word that had once lost it's meaning for me
it was as elusive as a leopard
as evasive as an eel.
Now. . .
just maybe,
it's a little closer.

you left me
where have you gone?
I can't find you
in the place you used to be 
all you did was smile 
and all I did was wave 
but I though maybe
we were friends
but I guess I'll never know

my pen scratches across the heavily patterned paper
ruining the two hours of work I put into it
I sigh and get up 
and go splash some water from the bathroom sink on my face
I look up into my reflections' eyes
and wonder,

If I was an object

based on my personality

I would probably be a support beam in an old building

it's just who I am

I do my best to hold everybody else up

but sometimes I feel a bit tired