ivyparks

i want to hold the glassy
tears that fell from the sky
when they told me
that god was crying.

my breaths are quickening
as i run to them, the air
pushing me back into the
earth from which i sprung from.

your eyes in the
sunlight make me melt
like the sugarcube
on my tongue,
sweet like forgiveness.

spiderwebs are spun
around the darkest memories
in my mind, hiding
them from view like my
smile hides my tears.

cheeks slick with tears
and hurt, my hands shake
as I try to reach
for the stars you once
wanted so badly to be ours.

my smile, once sticky
with blue cotton candy 
happiness, is now empty,

i sneer down at your modesty,
i spit out your teachings
on the floor of our sacred place.

and as you force me on my
knees, splinters biting into
soft skin, i will not cry,
but instead laugh at your violent ways.

the taste of honey sits
sweet on her tongue before
turning bitter.

she chews on her tongue, the metallic
taste of blood filling her
mouth until she gags.

her dry lips curl as
she looks at herself in the mirror

i don't let my mind wander
anymore because it always
finds it's way back to the
old times.
nowadays, i sit on my swing
everyday and listen to other
peoples sugarcoated voices tell
me how to live my life.