you asked me today
why i was so upset about you leaving
again
and everyone thinks 
that it's not a big deal
because it's not like you're here now
you've been gone for years

and i've missed you for years

i don't know what you see in me.
i was nice to you, but not out of the ordinary.
i care about you, because you're my teammate. 

i'm screaming underwater
drowning
while they all watch from the shore
standing
motionless

how are we here again?