Anchor

I told myself I’d anchor myself

In fifth grade.

I lost myself in sixth.

Created myself in seventh. 
Now in this horrible in between

I wonder if I can be the person I have been

Without you?

Because I knew you anchored me

But without you

Truly

What keeps me away from what kills me?

If I am so addicted to the poison

And you aren’t there to keep me distracted keep me happy and free and loved

Will I still be me

Or am I just not capable?

How to be my own person with my anchor far away, I wonder?