on and off and on again

The first time

I thought you were the one. 

I was just a silly kid

back then. 

 

I longed for no more fights,

and no more misunderstandings. 

But to be more than friends,

I didn't want to pretend. 

 

You didn't want me, 

only for your petty little things. 

You only cared enough to rant

about other people. 

 

The second time

I think we both knew. 

But we were scared to say the truth,

so we hid it behind other dates. 

 

All I longed was to dance with you,

not a girl that I picked last minute. 

I wanted you for a life time,

I just didn't know it yet. 

 

The third time

fell into crumbles. 

It broke over and over,

I didn't think it could be healed. 

 

I liked her,

you liked me. 

I don't like her, 

and now you hated me. 

 

Every time I saw you that year

you were in tears. 

And when I mentioned your name

you'd both push me away. 

 

The fourth time

bloomed like a lily or a rose. 

It started small,

but then we grew to like one another. 

 

We overcame our little spats, 

We pushed through the turmoil. 

You loved me, I loved you

I think we both knew 

us was timeless. 

izz_midnight

NH

15 years old

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