asleep

i was so used to you putting me to sleep and tucking me in

kissing my forehead and singing to me

that i never thought 

that one day

i would be putting myself to sleep 

i wouldn't feel your arms wrap around me

and kiss my hair

i wouldn't hear your soft and raspy voice when you would sing to me

and tucking the sheets around my body

i turn off my lights myself

and don't run and hop on my bed in fear of monsters grabbing my ankles

i tuck myself in

and don't wrap it around my body as tight as you

its silent.

one "goodnight" and one peck on the cheek is all you have to do, right?

thats what i thought.

but when i'm left alone with my thoughts, all i think of is you and your hugs and voice before bed. 

sometimes i toss and turn

and sometimes i stay still

goodnight to me, and to you too.