Back

And it's all back

Full-fledged

Only it's... worse?

It's harder?

And I am completely "fine"

And "enjoying myself"

And "fitting in".

I take the homework home

And complete it within half an hour.

I take responsibility for my work

And return the books to my teachers.

I practice for sports

And I compete

And I'm a good sport and a good athlete.

I ask my friends how they're doing

And I try to balance them all

And I go through the motions

Emotionless.

I am so on top of everything

Why does it feel so awful?

I'm so lonely

Filling every class with daydreams and doodles

I did not think I could be this stereotypical of a teenage girl.

How pathetic.

Bored

Or lovesick?

I'd rather be the former.

I'm scared

And I hate it here

Trapped in between eighth grade and high school

Being dragged

Slowly

Backwards