Caught

The words are caught in my throat 
like a butterfly in a child's net 

They're stuck 
entangled in my hesitation 

I'm petrified 
I'm at a loss of what to tell you

and at the same time
I know exactly what I need to say

but I wonder if the two are the same 
or perhaps 

what I need to say 
isn't what you want to hear

and that 
is what scares me the most

the worst that could happen 
is you rejecting me 

however 
you saying yes may be even worse

not for me 
but for you. 

the words are caught in my throat 
like a butterfly in a child's net

I want to say them 
but I don't.