Chlorinated

Faded from the chlorinated water 
of too long in thought
reaching out 
but not far enough 
you fall 
only for the world to stop 
and leave you hanging 
frozen, stuck 
i let go 
of all i love 
to run away 
and pull you up 
because i see
in your eyes
and endless, sapphire filled sky 
slipping upwards 
spining down 
flailing 
falling all around
i fear we may have lost what's left
the sanity 
replaced by regerets
the fading color 
from the chlorinated water
of too long 
left in thought
porcalian promises left in your wake 
somber yet silly
and filled with mistakes
turning 
yet staying in place 
how is it possible 
going insane
red ribbon dancing 
violent games 
not so playful banter 
and a unthought changing of names 
waking up from this dream 
and hating what is seen
all color fading 
and changing to gray 
making it all dismal 
and an ugly fuliginous shade 
all from that chlorinated water 
of too long in thought.