Concert sick

I'm

the concert kind of sick

just-one-more-day-of-health

feeling-the-sneeze-coming sick

sniffles and tissues and begrudging resignment

but if I can just make it

one

              more

                                 day

I'll be home free

dress rehearsals

music

audience

the

SOLO

I've been waiting for

I want to be admired

by

the

world

it will all be worth it

post-concert slump will be upon me

missing the music

when new shapeless pieces fill our stands

how to make this work again?

I don't want to be sick for this

I want to live it

like I always do

because I'm in love with the anticipation

the nerves 

the excitement

being a band kid

I want to run into school and say

"HAPPY CONCERT DAY!" 

like I've been waiting to for weeks and

it's my last year here and

I won't get to do this much longer or at least

it won't be the same

so

I want to avoid work and fall behind and push everything to tomorrow

and rehearse and hum songs and yell at missed cues and accents

and be scared

because even if we fail

that's what we do here

let's do this, guys!

I've been waiting for this

I just really hope I stop being

so darn concert sick.