Confused.

I'm so confused.

why?
why do you do this to me?
every comment double sided
every word a million meanings
every glance confusing as hell

Why?
why do my feet absently bring to you 
carrying my crazy, love bamboozled mind to your seat
my knees going weak when I see you
wanting to cave in under my immense longing 

Why? 
why do I give in to you 
I know you don't want me 
yet i let my mind tell me what I want to hear 
and let you take advantage of me

Why?
why can't I ask you a simple question 
one that has the power to end my pointless suffering 
or start a new ecstasy filled future 

Why?
can't I simply function
when I need to. 

I'm so confused. . .