Contradictions

I love you yet

I can’t stand you

I need you yet

I push you away

I treasure you yet

I want to leave

You’re a liar who

Broke my heart

And

You’re the very thing that might

Put it back together

Your smile makes my heart sing loud

But your pain creeps under my skin

I wish I could understand you

And

All the multitudes you contain

For now all I know is

There’s something wrong with your brain

What made you think it was okay

To lie to me and them

What made you think we’d

Want you back

After all of that

Yet here I stand

Indecisively

My heart’s in your hands

And I might just take it back

But maybe I could leave it

Maybe it could remain

But you don’t love me

This I know yet

I’m still stuck on your lies

You told you were broken like us

That we shared damaged parts

You told us that you loved us

And for that 

We gave you our hearts

But our hearts you did not treat with care

As you well should have

Instead you threw them into the flames

And you walked away

So maybe I should remain distant

Not part of your group

But I can’t stop myself thinking

What is wrong with your brain?