Fainting Goat

Almost every day I wear a hoodie.

To hide a part of me that I can’t escape.

It shrouds my difference from the world.

So that I can seem normal.

So I can fit in.

So that nobody can pick on me about it.

Every day at school is chaos.

The noise

The people 

All the people 

Sometimes I want to hide in a corner 

To get away.

To recenter myself.

So that I don’t break down.

I am unique 

I have hearing loss 

I feel as if it is harder for me to fit in 

I feel as if I am a puzzle piece that can’t fit 

I have this teacher...

This teacher is rude and sexist 

They get mad if you don't know the answer to something that they haven't explained yet...

They never get mad at certain students, they have favorites...

I don't want to be a survivor, I don't want to be brave

I don't want to be stronger, I don't want to be saved

I don't want to be tested to see if I'll do it right

I don't want your God to use me to fix your broken life.

I Wish You Never Hurt Me

When we first met

I had no idea

You would become so important to me

Yet now I find myself

Wishing we never met

Now I’m forced to remember you