Contrasting

I have people who will hold me 

Love me

Splash me in sparkles and giggles and emails

And I have people who will hurt me

Snark

Sarcasm

Never really laughing

Never really there

Always thinking about themselves

I try hard not to get mad

And I reread my notebooks and I do.

I do get mad.

All the thoughts all the tears

Repeating myself praying you'd hear and

Then you would but

You wouldn't.

You would

Ignore me.

Horrible

In between

You still run away

Aren't we past that?

All of you

Pick a side.

From finding any excuse to miss recess

Staking out hiding places away from the cafeteria

To angry pacing in my room

Trying to find something to punch so hard and so fast I am lightning

Fire

Burns

And I burned you

But I guess that's just

What I do.