CONVENIENCE

I hate that I am only loved when you feel like it,

like I'm lovable but only when there is nothing better,

you miss me but you just miss having me as an option,

you wish I was there but only when nobody else is free. 

I get that I may not be a top choice,

I may not be whatever definition of "perfect" you follow,

but I put in effort,

I try,

I care,

I love,

but that's only enough when no one else is around right?

I'M only enough when I'm doing something to benefit you right?

I'm really ONLY needed when you have nothing better to do right?

I'm not even needed or LOVED I just am a time filler.

Wanting me is really just an impulse WHEN you lose interest in your new "toy" right?

Sometimes I wish I wasn't so lonely because IT'S so easy to fall for pretty little lies,

I've figured out that believing the lies is more CONVENIENT then undressing them to see the ugly truths underneath.