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Will I really
allow myself to be pulled instead of pushed?
Am I not strong enough to 
at least try and fight
the temptation to
take
even though I am so frequently given to. 
And for what? 
Temporary validation, sweetness? 
And what will become of those who don't recieve? 
Who am I taking from? 
Just one, maybe? But oh, one turns to more
so frequently and do I really control
myself as the road grows darker and my bravery is no longer present?
Where does my control stop and their control begin, what is control? 
Who to blame, my upbringing, this sweet tooth, given by
generations craving an ephermeral encounter with a treat
previously restricted upon. 
As they push, I pull away from my own values
but who am I really pulling from,
should I be pushed
SHOULD
Who created the word "should?" 
Who are you to say what is right and what is wrong? 
Am I wrong to listen to you, and how is your influence 
adjusting the words of the little voice in my head
The one who has told me that I am able to CONTROL.
And the second you say "should" I begin to doubt so just please leave
leave me to be on my own.
But please, no, when you are gone I might give in to the temptation
to steal
Steal from the innocent, from those who need us most. 
Steal from my own self? 
Because, somehow, I owe it to myself to be the person who
allows others to feel joy, 
as then we could share this feeling of 
contentment.