Do You Still ...?

Do you still find comfort 
In the way the leaves change 
Green to orange to red to green again?  
Do your clothes still smell like apples and spices?  
Do you still drink cider 
While you drive that car with the rusted bottom,  
Admiring the changing of the seasons? 

Do you still yearn to grow old 
In a house where memories line the walls 
And you and your family will add on to them? 

Do you still dream of getting out,  
But your true dreams 
Lie deep inside your heart 
Buried deep beneath your skin? 

Did you ever find someone else 
To sit and watch the stars with 
As the air grew cold,  
Holding onto them so tight,  
Hoping, 
Praying they wouldn't leave like the last? 

Did you also wish for it to not end, 
For nothing to change,  
For all the moments to never become memories 
And for all the people to always stay the same? 

Did you watch as the leaves changed again  
This year like the ones before?  
Were you still sitting on the hill,  
No longer comforted by my presence  
While I wished to see you again?  
Or did you forget about me 
Like I hoped you never would?