Don't Tell My Friends

Lying in my bed

Staring at the ceiling

Rethinking the day

Going over everything I said

Everything I did

But please

Don't tell my friends

About my excessive overthinking

Looking at my screen

Watching the dots dance

Waiting for a response

For a reply

Then waiting for the dots

To disappear

Just like how you think they will

But please

Don't tell my friends

The anxiety those dots cause me

Walking on the sidewalk

And moving out of the row

Of three

Because sidewalks are small

And I don't want to be a bother

Walking behind them

Wishing and hoping

They don't walk away

But please

Don't tell my friends

How horrible it makes me feel

How scared I am they just don't care

Even if they do

Sitting at the lunch table

Listening to the conversation

Wondering if they want me at

That table

Then chiming in

And wondering if I talk

Too much

If I'm annoying

But please

Don't tell my friends

All those insecurities

I don't know if they know

How much I they matter to me

How much I love them

But please

Don't tell my friends

I'm worried they're going to get tired

Of me