empty

I don’t care,

I’m failing all my classes, my life

I have tasks to do,

two of them, three, four, I’m buried

The weight is crushing me,

I have no one to blame but me,

I let it build up, blasted the water against the dam,

It’s all due today, in just a few hours,

I don’t even attempt to grab my work,

There’s a feeling across my body,

A lack of feeling really,

It’s numbness, I’m numb, apathetic,

Well, that’s a shame.

What’s the point?

I feel so detached, life feels unreal,

I’ll probably drop out of high school,

disappear into the masses,

just another statistic,

another face unseen.

What even matters?

I’ll drive myself to oblivion,

fullily knowing,

willingly walking to my doom,

nothing matters,

Yet, everything does,

Oh god, I care so much.