Feeling stupidity

Is this love?

This riding every high

And crashing burning like a sugar rush gone wrong

It's so weird

So elated

And then so depressed

I soak my pillow with tears and giggles

Starstruck smiles and death itself

It felt like death

Which is how you know you care I guess

When the thought of he doesn't love you anymore

Makes you hate the world

Makes you skip meals and hide in your room and wish for a thunderstorm

And beg for silence and cry during Modern Family over the stupidest of things

Is that love?

When the thought of no more kills you inside?

I felt stupidity

When I got knocked out of it

Hard

By you actually you there being with you 

So stupid

How the heck could I ever be mad at you?

Why on earth was I so angry?

And it's all changed with words

Even a sentence

Is this love?

Am I twisted crazy

For changing on a whim

My mind is made up and then everything's gone?

My world being shaken

Ruined

Burned and rebuilt

What is this?

QueenBee

VT

14 years old

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