For the First Time

Deep in my heart,
I still wonder what went wrong. 

Somewhere along the way, 
Everything fell. 

Every day something falls, 
But these days I can't seem to build it back up. 

I can't escape the hole I dug,
I can't find the light in the darkness.

Every day I wish for an escape, 
I wish something will change. 

But in the end,
Nothing every will. 

Time will pass and nothing will change. 
The sun after the storm will disappear. 


Yet nothing will go back to how it was. 
And every day you'll wish for everything you can't have. 


Because if we never wished for that, 
What would make us human.

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    when all we have is spent–

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    Dear god, am I real?

    I believe in god even though I may know he doesn’t exist

    I know the mountains were not formed by him

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