"Goodbye"

For some people, putting a mask on is a horrendous thing. You’re masking yourself, in favor of another, of course it’s bad, right? 

For a spy, putting on a mask is a form of safety. It doesn’t even have to be a real mask, but acting like a different person will truly sell the look to anyone. Everyone puts on a mask at some point, which is why it’s absurd to condemn one for wearing a mask, because aren’t you also wearing a mask, and aren’t you trying to hide yourself further by trying to make others feel worse about themselves? 

Humans are such hypocrites. I mean, I am also one, for writing this and calling everyone out, but it’s a deserved callout. Like what the kids call, “a wake up call”. I’m waking you up to the horror of life, or the truth; I do not know. It’s just a reason. Then again, everything people write is for a reason, whether that be something truly meaningful or truly convoluted. 

I’m rambling here, which I do often now in this persona. See, I’ve already put on a mask! Normalize it. I’m writing this to you, because I am leaving and I need you to understand something, or a few things. 

None of this was real. Honestly, you were just a stepping stone I needed to really get to the point. I chose you because you were simple and gullible and too easy to catch. You knew the right people, and would tell if I played my cards right. Oh, but don’t worry, I’ll ensure your safety, and your family’s. I’m not that cruel, and you did treat me well, for what you thought was real. I wonder, if you had known it wasn’t real, would you have treated me differently? 

It’s fruitless to even think about it however, so I will put it at rest. This is a break up. Or a formal notice of my departure from your life. I would say I feel sorry, or bad for whatever I’ve done to your heart or life, but I really don’t feel any remorse. It’s in the job, after all, and as a spy, I put on masks and the true me just gets hidden. Behind that true self, is me, a spy who's been hardened by years of work.

You’ll never see me again. I’ve taken good lengths to ensure that you, and anyone who has seen me in this persona, will not know who I am. A spy’s job is to stay hidden, and to only put yourself out there as a normal person, under any disguise necessary. 

It’s not your fault you were too knowledgeable. Knowledge is power. Don’t squander it. I hope you find something worth your time, but knowing your inclination to throw yourself at anyone who speaks your name, I don’t think you will. 

I assure you, I won’t be missing you, so don’t think about it while you're moping. 

Goodbye. Forever. I would say it was fun while it lasted, but it really wasn’t. The information was fun though.