"Holiday spirit"

Everyone's playing Christmas music

Christmas movies

break is in two weeks

we're already preparing our favorite meals.

And I'm lost.

Not good lost,

not lost in the holiday cheer -

I'm just depressed.

I don't know why

I don't know.

I feel like I have more important things to do with my life

I don't want to spend time with my family

all I want for Christmas is money

for my career.

I have to start working next year.

Soon I'll learn how to drive.

The holiday spirit is evading me

I just want the nostalgia over with

is that so bad?

If I stop running from the everything mess of everything my life is

it'll catch up to me and I'll cry

and then I'll cry and cry and cry.

Emotion slows me down when I need to be speeding up.

Yes, holiday spirit hangs in the air

everyone's so excited

and yet I'm over here thinking

Can't we skip it this year?