hope

The air is thick with heat, 

Making me feel as if I’m drowning.

I keep walking, for the fear of going back propels me,

But leaves me thin and sick as I stumble through the streets of what was once my dream. 

The city that claimed to have my fate written out in the stars that shone above,

Ripped out of my desperate grasp, despite all my efforts.

Tears blur my vision. 

There’s no one out at this hour of the night.

The people watch, fearful, from their windows as I hobble past, 

A poor old soul to pity.

I became the kind I hid from when I was just a girl, 

With a plan, 

A lie, 

And a dream, so foreign to me now, that I can’t begin to understand what I was thinking,

When pure devotion took over my heart and mind, setting me free into the world that would eat me alive. 

emi_art_now

NY

15 years old

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  • leaving the heart

    she takes the stairs, 

    her heels click clacking down the hardwood steps. 

    she turns the tarnished silver doorknob, 

    and the door creaks open. 

     

    before her sits a man. 

  • too far to hold

    I catch a glimpse. 

    from afar, 

    the shine of his silky hair in the golden sunlight

    his expression unreadable, 

    as if he's pondering something he'd never tell a soul. 

  • watching him

    Kathy watched out her window as Samuel left his apartment, 

    spit his gum on the ground

    and lit his cigarette. 

    the same as yesterday. 

    the same as every day.