How do I say goodbye?

Culmination.

Wrap-up.

Climax.

Soon to be the end.

The end of what felt like forever.

How do I tie up the ends of my life like this?

How do I say goodbye

To Google meets when we didn't even really have to

Saying we needed to study

Snow days spent

Not lonely

Because I had you?

How do I say goodbye

To the duet

The songs

Sleigh Ride, the dreaded piece

I barely survived

And you said "Congrats!" like it was

A rite of passage or something?

How do I say goodbye

To yo-yo

Joking

Laughing

Practice rooms

The spelling bee

The birthdays

September

All the little things you've ever said

Stored up in my brain?

How do I say goodbye to that?

And then all the things After too

Sitting next to you

Holding your hand

Hearts

Everything.

How do I say goodbye?

How could I ever say goodbye to this?

QueenBee

VT

13 years old

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