a human-sized hole

We had the time of our lives,

But I'm still longing for more.

We danced all night long,

But there was never enough time. 

To call you mine. 

That night at the door you said goodbye, 

I never knew that would be the last time. 

Now I wish I said more,

I had everything I wanted with you. 

And I wish you knew. 

I was left with a dip and a twirl,

And a hole in my world. 

You left me so suddenly,

I didn't even have time to blink. 

Or think. 

I never thought this is how you'd go,

Maybe you'd go peacefully at our home. 

They don't tell you how to be fixed,

When your whole future crumbles. 

And your mind is jumbled. 

They all empathize for me, 

But they don't know anything at all. 

They send cards and flowers, 

But it doesn't heal my heart. 

It doesn't refill that part. 

He said you were a spare, 

Like he didn't even care. 

You were the love of my life, 

And he took you from me. 

So easily. 

I didn't want things to change, 

But they did. 

I'm stuck with tears in my eyes, 

Knowing you're never coming back. 

Not until I crack. 

They'll never know how much I want to crack, 

They'll never know how I feel. 

And how much I want to go back,

To a time before, when I had your soul. 

So there wouldn't be this human-sized hole.