I don't

I don't

Open at your words

Your touch

I don't

Listen to

Anyone anymore.

I am completely in my head.

I know we don't have time for this mess.

I do it anyway.

I don't

Pay attention.

I can't.

Don't, I tell myself.

Don't be that 

Cold-shouldered                icy stare              lifeless            fake smile

Girl.

Could you instead be

Love            light          laughter          connection?

I could.

But

I don't.

QueenBee

VT

13 years old

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  • Some days

    Some days I look through my folder

    Flip through my books

    Scroll through PDFs

    And I just don't want to

    Just don't feel like it

    Just not in the mood

    And suddenly I am terrified

    Terrified

  • Who am I?

    Sometimes I think

    Of what my life would be without this

    Without the conductor who changed my life

    Without my duet partner who taught me how to perform

    Without my instrument

    Without the music

  • This summer

    I should be being

    A teenager

    Walking around

    Biking the village with friends

    Creemees

    Candy

    Joking

    Laughing

    Teasing

    Farmers markets

    Confessions

    Crushes

    Running around