"I don't care"

"I don't care," I say.

Don't care.

Don't.

Do not.

Don't want to.

Can't.

Scared to.

You look at me.

Ask, "What about your friends?"

Yes, what about them, self?

Why are you suddenly so determined

To leave them behind?

I'm in a mood

And I want everyone to know it.

Don't care.

Do not.

"Eh, whatever," I say.

You look me in the eyes,

And I see the moment it clicks.

The one deeper moment of

"Ohh, you're shutting down again,"

And I can tell

You don't know what to do about it.

Let me ruin my own life?

Completely destroy the people I love?

How could you

Possibly

Prevent this?

Interrupted

In the middle of this moment,

When I saw the recognition in your eyes,

Saw the wheels turning,

The How do I fix this?

But I don't care.

Don't want to.

QueenBee

VT

13 years old

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