I don't know what it is

I have never wanted

Something more than I do now

The problem is

I don't know what

I don't know what

I long for

What I reach for

It's like a dream

Blurry and unrecognizable

I want this thing

So much

It hurts

It's like an emotion

And idea

Something not tangible

But I reach for it

I grasp the air

I dream about this thing

This emotion

This idea

I want to hold it

Cradle it

Name it as my own

But first I have to

Know what it is

I've been searching for

I have to find

The unimaginable

I need this

So much

It's as if I've been starved

And I can smell the food

It's like waiting for the water to boil

But it never does

It's as if its right there

But I don't know what it is