I fear I lied to you

I fear that I lied to you, straight to your face

When you looked me in the eyes and asked

If I was ok, how I was doing

And I lied, straight to your face

I lied and said, I was fine

I suppose my lie wasn’t that big

Perhaps it didn’t even matter, just a small grain in a beach of problems

But sometimes I wonder, I wonder what would happen

If I were to admit such a thing, if I were to tell you the truth

But then the thought always disappears

Because although I feel as if I’m drowning in a sea that I created

I think about the other oceans and seas

Where people gasp for breath and truly need the life jackets thrown at them

I think about how minuscule my problems are, compared to the millions that surround them

For I am only a single star in the sky among thousands of others

So I suppose that I lied to you, but it was a white lie

It doesn’t hurt a soul, except for perhaps me

But I think in the grand scheme of things, hurting my soul

Causing a bit of pain, a small scratch, something so insignificant

Shouldn’t matter in the world we live in

And doesn’t size up to all the other problems, the real problems

So maybe I did lie to you, I fear I did, as I looked you in the eyes

You asked me how I was, if I was ok

And I, as a grain of sand, whose thoughts are stars among stars

Lied to your face, and told you that I was

Fine