I Guess That's Obvious

Some people look at me 

in my childish pigtails,

talking too loudly,

trying to get everybody to hear me.

And think they know everything about me.

That I'm a ditz,

that I have my head stuck in the clouds,

But what do they actually know? 

nothing.

I'll tell you what kind of person I am.

I have no strength, but I want all of it.

I'm not smart, and I say I want to be more, yet all I do is dream.

I say there's nothing I can do, but I know that there is

while I struggle and fail like an idiot!

I don't hate myself. 

I just hate how I act 

and yet I do nothing to change it

while saying that I'm trying.

I talk loud and make myself sound like a big shot

when I can barely do anything at all!

I almost never do anything,

yet I complain with everybody else 

like it's my job or something.

Who do I think I am?

I'm a fake,

it's crazy how I can live like this

and not feel anything!
 

And you know it's true-

I write these things 

saying that I want to make a difference

when I don't do ANYTHING

to support my cause!
 

I say that I want to 

make the world a better place 

and yet I just sit here

doing nothing!

I'm not empty.

It's not that I stopped caring.

It's not that I stopped feeling anything.

It's just that I stopped doing anything.

But I guess that's obvious.