we used to
giggle under our shared covers, our battery-powered flashlights lighting up
your almond eyes, perfect dimples, button nose and the quilt above us
sewn only with memories of our childhood, worn shirts pressed with happier times and the scent of you
you would turn your face serious, never suiting you
and then laugh once more, and i would follow along
a chorus of joy echoing far into the night
and out into the world
we used to
read late into the afternoon, even when the sun had whispered a gentle goodbye
Oliver Twist, Peter Pan, the classics filled our minds, possibilities shone
we dreamt of Neverland, a safe haven, and mindless days of frolicking in the open woods
when bad and good were a line not crossed, and you knew who to trust
we laughed happily and it sounded like music
we used to
do homework together, with a tall glass of cold milk,
and chocolate chip cookies
that oozed when you touched them,
and you would squeal excitedly
halfway through you would start to imitate our strict professors, bored
Scrunching up your freckled nose,
and furrowing your perfect eyebrows
a slender finger stabbed itself into the air
and i would clap happily for I knew the answer
the world was small, but it was ours
and so it was perfect
but maybe it wasn’t good enough.
maybe you weren’t good enough
no more playing catch, childhood cookies, or silly gossip
The world decided to squeeze tight
and you decided to follow its example
the world was perfect, but it cracked
and you spilt it apart
we never get to
laugh anymore, i try to remember your perfect, sweet smile
your rosy blush, perfectly manicured nails
and your dark curls that fell softly on your delicate skin
our quilt is shoved in the back of my closet, stained with tears where I can’t remember
the memories of our childhood, worn shirts pressed with happier times,
and the long lost scent of you
i cry softly sometimes, when i think no one can hear
and it echoes into the night, far into the world
sounding like a broken music note
we never will
gossip about cute boys again, the way one winked at you cheerfully, and you batted you eyelashes back
there’s a half-empty tube of lipstick sitting on the white wood counter
waiting patiently for your return
your prom dress is still sitting on our vanity chair
where you left it after fussing with your appearance
The crystals used to glitter happily
but now they only give off a dull light as if they know too
you never got to
lightly blow out your birthday candles one last time, and squeeze your eyes
and wish desperately
for happier times, and laughter, cute dimples, and stories
anything left of a perfect world
you got your wish, for now you never grow older,
still the same age, still a golden childhood once more
forever in your own Neverland.
i miss you
More by Wise Owl
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The Impossible is Exhausting
many people simply look at a sunset and
bask in in the way it slowly blossoms open like a basic rose
peach and tangerine orange a shaded hue -
Just Letting You Know
Do you see that girl over there?
The one sitting on a curb, swinging her legs
back and forth,
and playing with her coarse braids
as she talks quietly to her tattered teddy bear -
you can
if you close your eyes real tight, and squeeze them closed, you can
imagine a world where the cost of labor is favored over the cost of a future
where words on a paper are priceless, glimmering nuggets of precious gold
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