I told myself

I told myself

Over and over

My future lies within that year

Within a heart so icy

It froze my own

Within eyes so guarded

They became attackers.

By seeking to reclaim our past

I was building our future,

Right?

Wasn't I?

Brick by brick

Every tiny piece of information

I could collect about you

Writing it down

Taking note

Memorizing every inch of who you are

Who I want you to be.

And so year after year

I chased down

The unchaseable -

You -

And yet, now...

Here we are.

I found someone who means

More than everything

And I don't know where you are now

But

Maybe this was never about you.

I found myself

When you left

And now

I have built myself a life

A future

With people I adore

Without you

I am free

And that's what matters.

What is forever, anyway?