If only I could

If only I could stop doubting myself,

If only I could stop being afraid,

If only I could be happier instead of secret depression,

If only I could get better, and peace would stay,

Then maybe I'd smile every often again,

Learn to laugh when all is falling.

Maybe I could be happy, 

I just need to try;

I need to try to move forward, the best I can do,

And instead of saying, “It’s fine,” when I know it's not true.

I need to get out, to explore, to see and feel the whole world in front of me.

Because there’s so much to experience. I just need to try my best to love myself, so I can be free.

So I’ll try,

And fail,

And try and fail and try and fail again,

But I’ll be okay, in the end.

I can hope, dream and learn and grow.

There’s always been hope; and now I know.