I'll regret it when its done.

I walked through the walls 

I was invisible 

I stood during conversations 

I stayed behind as we strolled 

I spoke a word an hour 

I laughed to be included 

I worked my schedule around their want 

I quieted my loud 

I would speak 

And stare 

Waiting for them to answer 

Or realize i needed an answer 

All i asked was to be noticed. 

I wanted to be seen, so i put myself out there. 

I asked the mutts, nightly 

“who’d like a piece?” 

They scurried over 

Tripping over themselves 

I gave them what they needed 

And they forgot about me. 

I asked the pigs 

“who’d like to stay?” 

They sprinted to be at my feet 

I'd give them what they needed 

And they would disappear 

I was careless with one; 

I gave important information 

He could kill me 

I hoped he would. 

I was annoyed with another; 

He was rude 

He disgusted me in ways I could not describe. 

Nor did i know why 

Could they be hurt? 

Yes 

Yet 

I continue, selfish 

I was hurt too wasnt i? 

All i want is to be noticed 

But i am being seen. 

More, i am being watched 

So keep watching 

Keep calling and texting 

Keep releasing 

Insulting 

Keep hurting 

What do I care? 

Your eyes are on me 

Regardless of where.