It felt nice

It felt nice, I guess

Not the backstabbing wannabes

But

The smell of chlorine

How it wouldn't get out of my hair

The racing swimsuit

How snug it was

Streamlined

How fast I was in the water

How powerful

Cutting

Racing

And you dared me against you

And I do not back down from a challenge

And I beat you at the impossible stroke

How you have to get your chest out of the water

Out of it like you mean it

Like you're soaring

And 

I was the best

I was trained to be the best and you all hated it

I was the best our coach had ever seen

And then he left

And then you all started acting up

Poisoning the water I loved

The water, my best friend

How I would cry into it underwater where no one could see

And I'd get angry and push

I would push so hard

To the point where my body couldn't take it and then I would feel

So good

I was a machine

I was a shark

But you all were so toxic

I forgot why I came

So I left

It felt nice, I guess.

It feels nice to be superpowered

But not so nice when everyone hates you for it.

QueenBee

VT

14 years old

More by QueenBee

  • Sleigh ride

    Just hear those sleigh bells jingling, ring tingle tingling too

    F F F F F G F-D Bb C D C-A G F-

    imitating the human voice with instruments

    percussion back there repeatedly hitting the sleigh bells

  • Family

    I showed my grandmother my keyboard

    she took six years' of lessons when she was younger.

    Her fingers found the keys -

    she could still read -

    just enough

    just a little.

    I pulled out my flute-piano duet book

  • First kiss

    You cared;

    I tried to.

    You did;

    I thought I did.

    I wanted so badly

    to be a character in my books

    and to feel longing

    to feel needing

    to feel love and to

    be loved