It felt nice

It felt nice, I guess

Not the backstabbing wannabes

But

The smell of chlorine

How it wouldn't get out of my hair

The racing swimsuit

How snug it was

Streamlined

How fast I was in the water

How powerful

Cutting

Racing

And you dared me against you

And I do not back down from a challenge

And I beat you at the impossible stroke

How you have to get your chest out of the water

Out of it like you mean it

Like you're soaring

And 

I was the best

I was trained to be the best and you all hated it

I was the best our coach had ever seen

And then he left

And then you all started acting up

Poisoning the water I loved

The water, my best friend

How I would cry into it underwater where no one could see

And I'd get angry and push

I would push so hard

To the point where my body couldn't take it and then I would feel

So good

I was a machine

I was a shark

But you all were so toxic

I forgot why I came

So I left

It felt nice, I guess.

It feels nice to be superpowered

But not so nice when everyone hates you for it.

QueenBee

VT

13 years old

More by QueenBee

  • Glimpses

    Noise

    Warming up

    Keys

    Fingerings

    Chatter

    Laughter

    The chorale

    Stopping

    Starting

    "Again"

    "I know you can do better than that"

    Serious but

    You also love it

  • Cornered

    Cornered

    I put my hands up

    Like you taught me

    Only now

    You're the one attacking

    "Helping" because

    You "just want me to feel better"

    And I braced for impact

  • Distracted and angry

    I'm distracted.

    Why did I let myself become so reliant

    Dependent

    So stupid

    Ugh I'm so mad.

    So mad.

    I let myself become distracted by silly things I could want

    I let myself want them