Journal, 4/8/23

Sometimes she feels like shes living in her own little world, away from everyone else. I know it sounds crazy, but she actually like the peace and quiet. In her little bubble, she can think and process things in her own way without any outside distractions.

However, as much as she enjoys the solitude, there are times when she can't help but hate who she is and who she was before. She looks back on her past and feel ashamed of the things she's done or the person she used to be. It's a harsh reality to face, but it's also a reminder that she's grown and changed as a person.

Despite her struggles, she always tries to see the world through her own lens. But, It's still like each puzzle pieces are in the wrong place, and she's the only one who can see the bigger picture. Sometimes it's overwhelming, and other times it's liberating.

It's strange how everything and nothing can affect her all at once. The smallest things can set her off, while the biggest issues don't seem to faze her. It's a balancing act that she's still trying to figure out.

She tends to keep her feelings to herself and play it off like everything is okay. She doesn't want to burden others with her problems, so she tries to deal with them on her own. Sometimes it works, but other times it just makes things worse.

When she needs to escape the world, she likes to stare off into space with music blasting. It's like her own little sanctuary where she can let her mind wander and forget about everything else. However, her leg often shakes uncontrollably, and she can't seem to stop it. It's a small thing, but it reminds her that even in her own little world, she's not always in control.
 

EvieC

VT

14 years old

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