A Jumble of Words

My brain is a jumble of words 

a puzzle of thoughts and feelings that I struggle to put together  

a tangle of ideas that never reach my tongue 

I used to wish for a filing system

to organize the mess of concepts that I don't know how to explain

but I've long come to peace, that that's not in the cards

Even my letters get mixed up 

(I can't spell to save my life) 

Because even though I know

i before e except after c,

I still can't spell "greif" 

and although I'm 15 

I was still unaware  "percive" had an e

But I still write poetry,

in notes to my friends too long to be called "little" 

and come up with metaphors in my head

because even though I don't understand what my words mean,

maybe someone out there can

and maybe they will tell me really how you spell "belive"