Lies

You lied to me.
not once,
not twice, 
not three times,
not four times,
in fact, I've lost count.

You abandoned me.
You lied about me.
You hurt my sister.
and you hurt me.
I know you're hurt too.
But I didn't hurt you.
They did.
So why me?

You expect me to be there for you
but you've been gone for years
so I'm done.
And I'm not apologizing 
For the mess you've made.

And I know
I'm supposed to let it go
because you're my best friend.
I'm supposed to let it go
because you would if we were switched
I'm supposed to let it go
because I love you.
 
But I'm not going to let it go
because you were my best friend
but then you left me
and we would never be switched
because I would never do this on purpose

because
maybe,
I loved you

and I don't anymore.