for a moment

I’m so busy now,

Even when I’m not, I’m busy,

Online, scrolling mindlessly, thoughtlessly,

Deeper and deeper into the well,

Not enjoying it, but just engaged enough to not think,

My stomach rumbles and I slip out of my trance,

The mist still ways down, it’s just enough to eat, emotionless,

Not enjoying it, not thinking, just going through the motions.

I look out the window, it’s drizzling,

A memory comes to me, 

running, dancing, outside in the rain, feeling it on my face,

And through my numbness, my unfeeling, through the haze,

some tiny little part of me wants that.

I turn away.