never thought-

never thought that i would see,

rip next to bootsy.

and i never thought i would see,

at the same time,

"rip pop-pop,"

"thank you for helping me."

i never thought i would be,

unpinning you,

and saying you are not a need.

and i never thought i would be,

mad at my 'best friend',

all because he would not stop leaving me.

i shake my head,

and look ahead,

the blurry and dark path.

the twists and turns to the "light",

but is there anything even there?

theres another version of me,

who shakes me into reality when i start to drift.

"just believe!"

"believe that everything you 'never thought',"

"actually must be!!"

she holds my forearms tight,

her red-painted nails dig into my pale scuff skin.

"i don't want to believe!"

i scream.

"reality is not for me,"

"everything i never think,"

"isn't meant to be!"

i never thought,

i would be,

denying my own voice.

i'm broken in pieces,

and i can't shake the feeling,

that everything i never thought,

might actually be.