New Year

New year's resolutions.

I tell myself a lot of things every year -

I never listen.

No boys, no distractions.

Too late.

This time is different I think -

I want that senior solo

and now that it's a race to who can be the best by senior year of high school it is on.

I don't have a choice.

If I want to be the one representing VYOA then I'm going to have to step it up

practice every afternoon

everything.

I'm tired of Mr. Remarkable being the one everyone references

I'm exceptional?

Thank you

but I'm only exceptional-ish.

I need to be me beyond a shadow of a doubt and I need this solo and so

this year is me me me me

and no matter how remarkable you are

no matter how many years' worth of advantage you have

I have to be there

I have to win.

It sounds so stupid but that's how I operate.

New Years, here we come.