Old

I feel so much older

I’m the oldest in my grade

I could’ve been going into high school

My birthday was right on the edge

My friends are all one to two years younger than me

And it’s a gap I can feel

I can feel the developmental difference

And how I’m gravitating toward my high school friends

Because they’re more mature

They’re more where I am

In life

I feel so much older

Something they won’t get until they’re there

I feel like I should be in high school by now

But I’m stuck here for another torturous year

I feel so much older

And it matters