one year more

one year older
still lost in your eyes
caught among the stars over my head
dreaming in the sunlight
being myself as much as i can
trying to free what's stuck inside
pushed down by the fear
and the assumptions of others
but slowly 
letting my colors
soak the page of who i am 
for others to see
the words pouring from me all in one big rush 
the weight lifting from my shoulders
the fear leaving my stomach
with my growing independance
i will be more honest
as to be more free
for one year older
and so many changes
so many words to describe my life
so many colors to paint my story with
so much laughter
and love
and people who lift me up
just to see me smile 
one year older
but still as young as i've ever been 
my mild obsession with brightly colored socks
and love for anything soft
and chocolate
one year older
and brighter
and bolder
and more myself
because one year older
means one year braver
and one year smarter
and one more year
spent becoming somebody i'm ok with 
in all my LGBTQ+ confusion 
and trying to understand how to be an adult
but still be a kid
and just how to be a good person 
in this world
one year more me.