the parts I let them see

If I were to drop dead 
right here
right now
or disappear
into thin air
how many people would actually care
would you even blink
or even stop to think
or would you just brush it off
as just one more unfortunate event of the world 
saying your sorry without tears in your eyes 
would anybody understand 
who I am
would anybody care 
that I don't like being called pretty
unless your one particular person 
or that it bothers me when people read over my shoulder
would anybody remember 
how much I love my family 
and my one real friend
would anybody recall my rare true smile
or my mischievous 'I'm about to steal your hat' grin 
will anybody remember the real me 
or will they only remember the parts i let them see?