Poetry

Who are we? 

Are we men 

in offices, yes that would still be 

us. 

But, I think we are also the boy who got a flag from the lady in the parade and waves it because he loves his country

I have people who will hold me 

Love me

Splash me in sparkles and giggles and emails

And I have people who will hurt me

Snark

Sarcasm

Never really laughing

Never really there

Just take me away from here

Whisper stories of starlight and fire

Water scrambling over rocks

Iron in my eyes

Just take me away from here

To a fantasyland where it's us

Just us

You

Don't get it

Don't get me

Where did the magic go?

I literally do have to be the best

You can't see outside your own opinions

And I'm a hypocrite

Following a faulty compass but

When I was little

My favorite color

Was pink

I wore dresses

To school

With matching

Floral headbands

Then I turned ten

Is it so wrong for you to look at me?

Is it so bad to smile my way?

You act like I'm untouchable, a flea,

But yet you kiss me whispers and my hair you play. 

I wasn't always like this-

I wasn't always with friends or have perfect grades. I didn't always have shoulder lengthen hair.

I didn't always have eyes that changed colors depending on everything. 

i'm different from how i was a week ago

a week ago, i could remember so many days,

and i would've never considered joining cheer.

a week ago, she and i were still friends.

a week ago, i didn't feel like crying. 

Breaking thoughts into pieces
Taking hours, sweetheart
Bury your face in your hands,
Let the tears flow

A feeling in my stomach when I see his face,
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i'm fine

i'm staring at nothing
thinking about everything
exhausted and hurt from the words that slipped off their tongues,
"you okay?" they ask without wanting to know the answer.

i wonder sometimes,
as i'm typing out message number five,
a paragraph pleading for an answer,
i wonder if they actually care