The road to the top

Pain is a sign 

That something is not right

Just because I have 

A high pain tolerance

Does not mean

That I have to ignore it.

I try to ask myself

Why I do what I do

But the truth is

That the only real answer

I can come up with 

Is “to please them”.

Maybe I've never thought

About what pleases me 

And only about the ways

I can prevent disappointment

Even though the one way

To do so

Is to put myself through hell

To tell myself that I’m ok

All the damn time. 

I was raised this way

Raised to think 

That the only way to go

Is up and up and up

“Bop to the top”

My parents said

Acting like the road to the top

Is enjoyable.