Second life

There is no one to go to
there is no one to talk to
there is no love song to relate to
and it makes me feel so utterly alone
I glance at them across the room
then feeling my heart drop slowly down to my feet
it will just be like before
it will be right back to square one 
it will be the death of me 
second death
reopening the scared and bruised hole in my chest 
leaving me just as empty 
And if my future takes the path that I predict 
then I will only be reliving my past
and my heart ache will only double
leaving the boiling storm clouds to open
rain thundering down
leaving me shocked, cold, and broken.
and if I am cursed with a second life
I’ll be sure to remember you