start over.

my heart beats to the rhythm of life
while my soul dances to the sweet sound of freedom 
by my own feeling I will be captive no more
from the shackles of expectation I will be released
I will break the chains of my own misery 
and fly from this prison 
that I built from hurt 
bricks made of broken trust 
bars made of shattered hopes
things I don't really need 
to keep hold of
I will build a new home
made of new dreams 
and fresh hopes
and warm bread from the oven 
slathered in the sweet rich butter 
of joy
I will cry sometimes
but my tears will make rain 
that will fall on the dry cracked desert plains 
of forgotten emotion
freeing the seeds of my regret 
and letting them blow away on the wind
of new things to say 
new things to discover 
new things to be
today I will start over
wipe off the old
let out the harbored pain 
anger and frustration 
let go of what is hurting me
and see
where I can go 
what I can do 
how I can be
to be the best I can
today I will start over 
little by little I will 
it's time for me to fix things
inside my fake smile shell.