Stay

I saw a photo of our band from last year

our Wind Ensemble

the intern we all fell in love with

the conductor we adore

everyone was together

and I just...

gah.

I wanted to yell STAY

Stay where you are

I wish I could freeze time and keep my beautiful amazing bandmates here

where we were all happy

not fumbling around a high school not driving not making decisions

I want to stop everyone right now

I want to turn back time

I'd do it for them.

I'm not crazy close with all of them

some I disliked

but what we had was so fun and so perfect and so musical 

and I just miss that

STAY

can't you stay?

Stay here?

Stay with me?

I'm in denial

I'm in denial

I don't want

to grow up

can't we all just stay here

in Montreal with our instruments and each other and miniscule problems?